Ok, I am fighting on a daily basis to keep myself composed for my fiancé
who has panic attacks and anxiety. My baby is most important to me and is
1/3 the way here. She has pondered and pushed forward with the abortion
with my baby’s heartbeat fluttering on my mind. By the grace of God and my
deeply rooted prayer, she went against it. I cried, as a MMA fighter who is
strong and hard. This is MY first child, he’s ALIVE AND HEALTHY, and I LOVE
him! I work hard everyday to give her support and to stay uplifted but it
is kicking my ever loving a$$! The anxiety she GIVES ME is not able to be
measured! I do not suffer from the condition but from the stress I have
become very low. It hurts so much as my life should not be going this way!
I proposed, bought a ring, I have a good job as does she and this is
causing extreme hardship because she is now on disability. I cannot afford
her luxury car plus mine, plus bills/house/newborn on my salary. I ask that
we fit our lifestyle to MY income bc it is too much. She complains about
not wanting to live in a non-beautiful area. It’s like, WTF, you can’t do
it and I’m doing all I can. Why bite ME and fight when I am trying to
help!!!
I am not sure how to approach this. I have articles I have read and it is
like a drug addict. There is a root of the problem and they must FACE their
DEMONS. We all do at different times of our lives. You must fight, my
friends, past this. The people who have helped me stated that running away
from simple things and those people that baby those in the attack are
enablers. It’s like giving an angry drug addict more money to make them
happy again.
No, get past the hard road and life is SOOOO much better on the other side.
You MUST FIGHT past the stresses! That is the ONLY way to get past them.
Face it and force yourself into more and more of the pain little by little.
If a child is afraid to give speeches in front of class how does he get
better! Doing it OVER AND OVER in front of the class by putting himself in
the stresses.
Eventually, the battle will be won.
Are you afraid of fighting against the pain?
Life sucks in general at times but you know what? You aren’t green. You’re
not a leprechaun and luck doesn’t fly around. Hard times hit everyone.
I KNOW its HARD!!! I see my angel’s mom suffering daily but FIGHT those
demons! Your mind is an AMAZING thing and can overcome anything.
Cancer patients dying everyday, and they see the charts of them dying. Do
you give in or do you say “I KNOW I have this problem, I know this is
hurting me and my desired life. But I’ll be DAM*ED if this rules my life. I
WILL win. I WILL fight it. I WILL succeed!”…..
Look at yourself in the mirror daily and say “I’m proud of who I am. I have
this issue but it will be gone. It will not conquer me. I am the captain of
my ship. I am more powerful that it. I am a powerful person. I am ME AND
NOTHING CAN TAKE IT FROM ME.!!!!” Amazingly, those patients do FAR better
than those that don’t. Prayer, desire, heart, and courage.
God bless you guys! I feel for you! Remember everything in life is a test.
A test of will. A test of strength. A test of power!
You WILL succeed when you have decided that this is enough! DO NOT let the
thoughts run wild into stresses you don’t need. Be STRONG!
I LOVE YOU GUYS.
GOD BLESS!
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